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Going through my journal, I came across more of my poems. Been a while since I’ve penned anything in it. My last entry was…pretty depressing, but God wants our real emotions. We cannot be stoic. I’ve had a rough inner struggle the past year or so and quite honestly have almost abandoned my faith (for the record, I did not and will not). My last entry in January talked about it, Then I looked to the verse printed (by the makers, not me) on the bottom of the page: “May The Lord of peace Himself give you peace in all times and in every way”. 2 Thessalonians 3:16 BOOM! God thing there! Wish…I noticed it then. Sure I fail along the way, but trying to continue following Jesus is all I can do! When we realize that Christianity is not rules or morals, not words or feelings (even though feelings are part of it) but just Jesus taking our place and that God is not some punisher like a kid taking a magnifying glass to us ants, the freedom lifts ALL burdens and sins off of our backs! It feels incredible!
God has chisel and glue in hand to repair the brokenness. Only He can, not these temporary fixes that bite me back in the arse. Not even my deepest desires. God wants to (and will) restore ALL things and make them new..*yes that includes us*! I hold onto that hope, the bravest thing of all is always hope..
My favourite passage in Scripture is the parable of the prodigal son. Even in the dirt and the depths of our sins, God will pursue us and run after us even when we spit in his face or run away. That love…is so much huger than we can fathom! I wrote this kind of like a 3 act play, 3 different soliloquies (man I haven’t used that word since grade 10 English..Shakespeare ftw!). I spoke about this parable when I was baptized in 2005. Forgive me if I posted this before.. written Nov-Dec 2012.