Thursday, May 22, 2014

The Prodigal Trilogy Poem

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Going through my journal, I came across more of my poems. Been a while since I’ve penned anything in it. My last entry was…pretty depressing, but God wants our real emotions. We cannot be stoic. I’ve had a rough inner struggle the past year or so and quite honestly have almost abandoned my faith (for the record, I did not and will not).  My last entry in January talked about it, Then I looked to the verse printed (by the makers, not me) on the bottom of the page: “May The Lord of peace Himself give you peace in all times and in every way”. 2 Thessalonians 3:16 BOOM! God thing there! Wish…I noticed it then. Sure I fail along the way, but trying to continue following Jesus is all I can do! When we realize that Christianity is not rules or morals, not words or feelings (even though feelings are part of it) but just Jesus taking our place and that God is not some punisher like a kid taking a magnifying glass to us ants, the freedom lifts ALL burdens and sins off of our backs! It feels incredible! 
God has chisel and glue in hand  to repair the brokenness. Only He can, not these temporary fixes that bite me back in the arse. Not even my deepest desires. God wants to (and will) restore ALL things and make them new..*yes that includes us*! I hold onto that hope, the bravest thing of all is always hope.. 
My favourite passage in Scripture is the parable of the prodigal son. Even in the dirt and the depths of our sins, God will pursue us and run after us even when we spit in his face or run away. That love…is so much huger than we can fathom! I wrote this kind of like a 3 act play, 3 different soliloquies (man I haven’t used that word since grade 10 English..Shakespeare ftw!). I spoke about this parable when I was baptized in 2005. Forgive me if I posted this before.. written Nov-Dec 2012. 
Act 1: Son 1
I've had enough, I’m walking home.
The only place where true love is shown.
In every way I often fail.
Still God sees me as a holy grail.
More sought after than any prize
I am precious in my fathers eyes.
When I tell him of my sin
Without speaking he lets me in
A robe, a feast, a party for me
Deserving not, but praise to Thee!
Act 2: Son 2
Working hard, in the hot sun
Days a long, fruits almost none
I often hear my fathers cries
for my brother to return; HE LIES!
I work harder than anyone here
He takes off, far not near
Being foolish, perverse and just dumb
Surely he’s not my father’s son
See now, he returns and repents
He deserves it not, I must confess
I’m not going to see that fool
At least until my temper does cool
Act 3: The Father
As I watch for my son from afar
I seek a sign for his return, wishing on a star
My two sons, working hard night and day,
Until one decided to go far away.
To find himself in a dirty pit of sin
Where not even the pigs would let him in.
I see him now! He now comes near!
My other son is bitter, I fear.
My son my son! I forgive and forget
The sinfulness, the shame and regret
Be happy, be blessed in Christ on this day
In him is the truth, the life and the way!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Is singleness REALLY a gift?

Well, I am posting on singleness yet again. I swear it has NOTHING to do with whatever Feb 14th is. A while back, I gave up my search and intention to find a wife. I figured it was God's will and leave it in His hands. I've also stopped praying for it, because I don't deserve one and I was sick of saying the same thing "Please Lord, bless me with a wife that blah blah blah". If it happens, it happens. Nothing to be concerned about.
The old cliche' says "singleness is a gift". That is partially true. In one way it's a gift because I can focus on bettering my life and relationship with God and chose to spend time doing anything I desire. But, the loneliness can get a little crippling. Singleness, ESPECIALLY in Christian circles seems to be a club nobody wants to belong to, or wish on their best friends. There is a certain stigma to it, like something is wrong with me if I am nearly 30 without a girlfriend. Churches use marriage as a metaphor in sermons, have couple themed retreats and kind of leave the single folk to deal with themselves. How sad! Now, one should NEVER leave a church if they can't find their mate. Internet dating is a thing (not for me...yet.).
After The Apostle Paul had his encounter with Christ, he went on several missionary trips to proclaim the gospel and often went alone. It is unknown if he had a wife in the past, but seems to know a lot about marriage and singleness as marriage was the cultural norm for everyone over 15.
1 Corinthians 7 is a good example of this. The unmarried and the widows did not know what to do in their situations. Maybe singleness back then was not customary, someone help me out there lol
The latter verses say that if we're not married, don't seek a wife. If you are married: awesome! Verse 32 is interesting stating "One who is unmarried is concerned about things of the Lord and how he may please the Lord. (NASB), 33-34 indicate that his interests are divided between the Lord and his wife. Now, married folk know how to balance this. In order of importance: God-Family-Friends-Job (even if it's ministry or "God's work). I know single pastors and their work is incredibly fruitful. Maybe their lonely too, but their focus is on God as it should be. So is singleness a gift? YES! Even though a wife would be cool, it's not a necessity. Plus: you can use corny Christian pick up lines! To close off this post, I give you the 5 WORST Christian pick-up lines ever. #foreveralone
5. Your bible would look good on my night stand.
4. I believe one of my ribs belong to you!
3. Let's go speak in tongues together! (ow ow!)
2. Is it a sin that you stole my heart?
1. You. Me. Songs of Solomon remix.

Monday, February 10, 2014

More poetry

I've been going through my old poems lately and re-wrote some of them.

What is Good:

Perfection cannot be a requirement
If only one man obtained it
Asking Questions do not make me cynical
Yet, in my searching I only seek what is vital
Only Christ is put at the center of my soul
Not a dogma some call a lump of coal
Who's to say who is right? Division only causes us to fight
Some blindly adhere without an open ear (or mind)
What is good? Only the one true God we fear
What is truth? Scripture that enables us to persevere.

somewhat inspired by Five Iron Frenzy's "All That is Good:" Written January 28th, 2013

1-1-13 Untitled
What can take me from your love?
NOTHING! For it is a gift from above
Because of Christ, we conquer sin
Not letting evil enter in
Yet, we still fail ever day
God still loves is in every way
No powers remove my name from the book of life
Even where struggles cause nothing but strife.

Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come,
nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.- - Romans 8:37-39 New King James Version.