Tuesday, April 6, 2010

The Lord's Calling

Over the past few years, I have been trying to find my calling in life. It dates way back to 2003: high school graduation was on the horizon and I was looking at some college options. I was going to graduate the previous year and work with my father, but I decided to stick around for a 5th year of Brock High. I was in an interesting graduating class, being in the last grade to get OAC's I had to take up the opportunity. OAC (Ontario Academic Credit) was formerly known as grade 13 before being canceled in 2003. This meant I was graduating with all of the grade 12's under me. It was cool, but their cirriculum was so different. And it was only a one year difference.

So, with all of the options in my mind I began looking at various colleges. I toured Durham in Oshawa, where I wanted to take Sports Management. I once had a dream to run an arena, or heck! Work for the Leafs but no go. I also wanted to do Crime Scene Photography at Flemming in Peterborough after a year of work, but needed stupid credits that the new curriculum called for. Despite the fact I graduated under the old one. Looking back, I am glad those fell through the cracks. I don't think God wanted me to do those things.

It took re-dedicating my life to Chirst in fall 2004 to find my true calling. God got my attention and guided me into youth ministry at my home church. This is where I felt God telling me to go to college and here I am. It took some praying and searching but I found an area of ministry that fits. Now I serve at an awesome church with an incredible pastoral staff and great youth. Now, I hear God calling me to Africa, which I explained in an earlier blog. It's so great to get opportunities that potentially allow me to grow in my relationship with Christ and in my abilities and confidence (that comes from Jesus!)

So, what is your calling? Are you really sure?

I leave you with some verses to meditate on:

"Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass ... Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him." (Psalm 37:4,7)

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." (Proverbs 3:5)

Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, 'This is the way, walk in it,' whenever you turn to the right hand or whenever you turn to the left' Isaiah 30:21

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach.
James 1:5


In a field of yellow flowers underneath the sun,
bluest eyes that spark with lightning,
boy with shoes undone.
He is young,
so full of hope,
reveling in tiny dreams,
filling up his arms with flowers,
right for giving any queen.
Running to her beaming bright,
cradling his prize.
a flickering of yellow light,
within his mother's eyes.
She holds them to her heart,
keeping them where they'll be safe,
clasped within her very marrow,
dandelions in a vase.

She sees love where anyone else would see
all hope is found, here is everything he needs.

Fathomless your endless mercy,
weight I could not lift.
Where do I fit in this puzzle,
what good are these gifts?
Not a martyr,
or a saint.
Scarcely can I struggle through,
all that I have ever wanted,
was to give my best to you.

Lord, search my heart,
create in me something clean,
you see flowers in these weeds.

Gently lifting hands to heaven,
softened by the sweetest hush,
a Father sings over his children,
loving them so very much.
More than words could warrant,
deeper than the darkest blue,
all that I have ever wanted,
was to give my heart to you.

written by Reese Roper: Five Iron Frenzy

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